Reguardless:

I didnt believe in God.

Yet he still loves me. He forgave me, He forgives even when we are so unworthy. Honestly what is on my heart today is how much i mess up. I am so messed up. i sin so much, I cuss, I falter, I literally disrespect my parents like you w wouldnt believe. and GOD STILL LOVES ME. The other night I went to a dock with Stephan, and just looking at the sky at night, it alone is amazing and shows me God's power. The colors of purple literally dancing across the sky, along with dark grey clouds, not to mention the sound of the water crashing against the dock. And its been raining for days, so the water has risen up to such great heights that the dock literally snapped and was floating on the lining of the dock? i dont know if that makes sense, but when i saw this it honestly just made me think of Gods power, and how people who open their hearts to God and let Jesus step from heaven and into their lives, they are lifted from everything holding them back, they are renewed. I dont know this vision has been persistantly replying over in my head.It just makes me think about how God has no limitations, i dont know, that night i gained a lot of hope. Because it had been raining like crazy outside for a week, and constand storms, and this Dock has taken so many beatings from multiple different furious waves, seeing the damage of the storm, made me think of my life, and the hardships I have been through, and how I have fallen so short, I fell of the Beautiful horse once before, I wont let myself fall again, but I crashed off before, and seeing that the dock had been lifted up from what was holding it down, multiple screws, and nails, it broke through ALL of it, and was floating on top of the waves, even with a picnic table on top of it. In my opinion I saw something that night, something about God. It was so reassuring, it was like, no matter what, he will lift me above all things that will cause wreckage. I dont know, i see things like this Everywhere. It shows me that reguardless of where we are, God is there, right a long with us..

Yesterday, someone i used to care about a lot, told me they dont believe in Christ or God or any of the events that occured. so I guess I ask that you, (the reader of this blog, whoever you may be.) will pray, not just for this person, but for all of the people facing things in life, and going through constant struggles, and doubts with God, just pray that they can accept the love of Christ?

-have a good day/night/life! (: